How Seekers First Found God
Self-Realization Fellowship International Headquarters, Los Angeles,
California, November 11, 1934
We can readily understand how man first conceived of a science of
medicine. He suffered physically and therefore sought a method to heal
himself. But how did man happen to try to find out about God? The
question gives scope for profound reflection.
In the Vedas 1 of India we find the earliest true concept of God. In her
scriptures India has given the world immortal truths that have stood the test
of time.
Every material inventor is actuated by material need—“necessity is the
mother of invention.” Similarly motivated by necessity, the early rishis 2 of
India became ardent spiritual seekers. They had found that without inner
satisfaction, no amount of external good fortune can bring lasting
happiness. How then can one make himself really happy? That is the
problem the wise men of India undertook to solve.
Three Aspects of Nature
Worship of God in prehistoric times began through man’s fear of the
various forces of nature. When it rained excessively, floods killed many
people. Awed, man thought of the rain and wind and other natural forces as
gods.
Later on, human beings realized that nature operates in three ways: creative,
preservative, and dissolutive. A wave rising out of the ocean exemplifies
the creative state; staying for a moment on the sea-breast, it is in the
preservative state; and sinking back into the deep, it passes through the
dissolutive state.
Just as Jesus beheld the universal force of evil personified in Satan, so the
great rishis beheld the universal forces of creation, preservation, and
dissolution personified in definite forms. The sages of old named them
Brahma the Creator, Vishnu the Preserver, and Shiva the Destroyer. These
primal powers were created as projections of the unmanifested Spirit to
unfold His infinite drama of creation, while He, as God beyond creation,
remains ever hidden behind their consciousness. In times of cosmic
dissolution, all creation and its vast activating forces dissolve back into
Spirit. There they rest until called upon again by the Great Director to
reenact their roles. 3
A Story About Brahma, Vishnu, and Shiva
In India there is a popular story about Brahma, Vishnu, and Shiva. They
were boasting among themselves about their tremendous might. Suddenly a
little boy came up and said to Brahma, “What do you create?”
“Everything,” Brahma replied grandly. The boy asked the other two gods
what their work was. “We preserve and destroy everything,” they answered.
The young visitor was holding in his hand a single piece of straw about the
size of a toothpick. Placing it in front of Brahma, he asked, “Can you create
a piece of straw like this?” After prodigious effort, Brahma found to his
astonishment that he could not. The lad then turned to Vishnu and asked
him to save the straw, which was slowly starting to dissolve under the boy’s
steady gaze. Vishnu’s efforts to hold it together were fruitless. Finally, the
little stranger produced the piece of straw again and asked Shiva to destroy
it. But try as Shiva would to annihilate it, the tiny straw remained intact.
The little boy turned again to Brahma: “Did you create me?” he asked.
Brahma thought and thought; he could not remember ever having created
this amazing child. Suddenly the boy vanished. The three gods awoke from
their delusion and remembered that behind their power is a Greater Power.
God, the Supreme Cause
In the Western world the idea of God developed through observation of the
law of cause and effect. Man can materialize objects by taking materials
from the earth and shaping them in accordance with a preconceived idea;
therefore it seemed reasonable to conclude that this whole universe must
have been created out of ideas. This led to the concept that everything must
have existed first as an idea. Someone had to create that first idea or cosmic
plan. Thus through the analogy of the law of cause and effect, intelligent
men reasoned that there must be a Supreme Cause.
Science has learned that all matter is made of invisible building blocks—
electrons and protons—just as a house is built of bricks. But nobody can tell
why some electrons and protons become wood, and others become human
bone, and so on. What Intelligence guides them? This line of questioning
gives room for God in even the material scientist’s theories about the nature
of the phenomenal worlds. The sages of India say that everything proceeds
from and goes back into its source: God.
Evidence of Order and Harmony Is Everywhere
Perceiving that every human being is a compound of matter and mind, the
earliest Western thinkers believed that two independent forces existed:
nature and mind. Later they began asking themselves, “Why is everything
in nature arranged in a particular way? Why isn’t one of man’s arms longer
than the other? Why don’t stars and planets collide? Everywhere we see
evidence of order and harmony in the universe.” They concluded that mind
and matter could not be both separate and sovereign; a single Intelligence
must govern all. This conclusion naturally led to the idea that there is just
one God, who is both the Cause and matter and the Intelligence within and
behind it. One who attains the ultimate wisdom realizes that everything is
Spirit—in essence, though hidden in manifestation. If you had the
perception, you would see God in everything. Then the question is, how did
seekers first find Him?
As the beginning step, they closed their eyes to shut out immediate contact
with the world and matter, so they could concentrate more fully on
discovering the Intelligence behind it. They reasoned that they could not
behold God’s presence in nature through the ordinary perceptions of the
five senses. So they began to try to feel Him within themselves by deeper
and deeper concentration. They eventually discovered how to shut off all
five senses, thus temporarily doing away entirely with the consciousness of
matter. The inner world of the Spirit began to open up. 4 To those great ones
of ancient India who undeviatingly persisted in these inner investigations,
God finally revealed Himself.
Devotion and Right Activity Attract God’s
Attention
Thus the saints gradually began to convert their conceptions of God into
perceptions of Him. That is what you must do also, if you would know
Him. You don’t stay long enough at your prayers. First you must have a
right concept of God—a definite idea through which you can form a
relationship with Him—and then you must meditate 5 and pray until that
mental conception becomes changed into actual perception. Then you will
know Him. If you persist, the Lord will come. The Searcher of Hearts wants
only your sincere love. He is like a little child: someone may offer Him his
whole wealth and He doesn’t want it; and another cries to Him, “O Lord, I
love you!” and into that devotee’s heart He comes running.
Don’t seek God with any ulterior motive, but pray to Him with devotion—
unconditional, one-pointed, steady devotion. When your love for Him is as
great as your attachment to your mortal body, He will come to you.
In seeking the Lord, activity comes after devotion in importance. Some say,
“God is Power; therefore let us act with power.” When you are active in
doing good, with the Lord ever uppermost in your mind, you will perceive
Him in this way. But there is wrong as well as right activity even in doing
good. A zealous churchman who brings more and more people into his
congregation solely to satisfy his own ego is not going to please God
through that activity. To realize the presence of the Divine Indweller should
be the first desire in every heart.
It is when you persistently, selflessly perform every action with love-
inspired thoughts of God that He will come to you. Then you realize that
you are the Ocean of Life, which has become the tiny wave of each life.
That is the way of knowing the Lord through activity. When in every action
you think of Him before you act, while you are performing the action, and
after you have finished it, He will reveal Himself to you. You must work,
but let God work through you; this is the best part of devotion. If you are
constantly thinking that He is walking through your feet, working through
your hands, accomplishing through your will, you will know Him. You
should also develop discrimination, so that you prefer spiritually
constructive, God-conscious activity to work performed without any
thought of Him.
Meditation Is the Highest Form of Activity
But greater than activity, devotion, or reason, is meditation. To meditate
truly is to concentrate solely on Spirit. This is esoteric meditation. It is the
highest form of activity that man can perform, and it is the most balanced
way to find God. If you work all the time you may become mechanical and
lose Him in preoccupation with your duties; and if you seek Him only
through discriminative thought you may lose Him in the labyrinths of
endless reasoning; and if you cultivate only devotion for God, your
development may become merely emotional. But meditation combines and
balances all these approaches.
Work, eat, walk, laugh, cry, meditate—only for Him. That is the best way to
live. In so doing you will be truly happy serving Him, loving Him, and
communing with Him. So long as you let the desires and weaknesses of the
physical body control your thoughts and actions, you will not find Him.
Always be master of your body. When you sit in the church or temple, you
perhaps feel a little devotion and a little discriminative perception, but that
is not enough. The esoteric activity of meditation is necessary if you really
want to be aware of His presence.
You might think that after two hours of meditation I would be bored to
death. No, I couldn’t find anything in the world as intoxicating as this God
of mine. When I drink that aged wine of my soul, a skyful of happiness
throbs in my heart. Divine joy is in everyone. Sunlight shines equally on the
charcoal and the diamond, but the diamond reflects the light. Such are the
transparent minds that know and reflect Spirit.
Thus in the esoteric activity of meditation you have the solution to the
mystery of knowing God. I do not blame you for what you do, but for what
you do not do. You think you have no time for God. Suppose the Lord were
too busy to look after you? What then? Wrest your mind from the mirage of
the senses and habit. Why be deluded like that? I am pointing out to you a
land more beautiful than anything here can ever be. I am telling you of a
happiness that will intoxicate you night and day—you won’t need sense
temptations to enthrall you. Discipline your body and your mind. Control
your senses. Find God!
I often say that this body is a switchboard and the five senses are its
telephone instruments. Through them I am in touch with the world; but
when I don’t wish to communicate, I shut off my five senses and live in the
inexpressible joy of God. The Heavenly Father doesn’t want you, His
children, to suffer anymore. The sensory delusion in which you live must be
overcome. You should conceive of God as the highest necessity of life.
Break the shackles of limitation, of dark habits and mechanical daily
routine. I condemn no man—only man’s unbelief and oblivion of God. He
can be known by using the technique of meditation. Then He shall throb as
wisdom in your mind, and as joy in your heart, and you will be more active
and more successful than you have ever been before.
Dear ones, I was once like you. I walked the earth seeking truth and
happiness, yet everything that promised me joy gave me misery, and so I
turned to God. You all must discover your own divinity and win the
kingdom of God for yourselves.
The Self Is Your Savior
These deep truths are not for the inspiration of a passing moment but should
be assimilated and made practical for your highest benefit. If only people
knew wherein lies their own good! To those who act wrongly the Self is an
enemy. Befriend the Self and the Self will save you. There is no other
savior than your Self. 6 The fetters of ignorance and bad habits keep you
bound. It is because you are determined to follow your wrong habits that
you suffer. If only you would picture life a little ahead; lest the time, the
precious time that is given you, slip away fruitlessly. The Hindus have a
saying: “The child is busy with play, the youth is busy with sex, and the
adult is busy with worries. How few are busy with God!”
Banish the imaginary hope that happiness will come from worldly
fulfillments. Prosperity isn’t enough, “gracious living” isn’t enough. You
want to be eternally happy. Seize the God within you and realize that the
Self is Divinity. You must be able to answer with surety the highest
question of your intelligence: “Whence did I come?”
God and immortality are not myths. It is the gravest insult to the Self within
you to die believing you are a mortal being. How long will you let
yourselves, sons of God, be helplessly mowed down by the sickle of death
because you never tried during your lifetime to conquer maya,7 ignorance?
Reason Gives Man the Power to Seek God
There is a God. He has given man independence, power, and reason. Man
can find the Lord because of the gift of reason. To spend your time just
playing with life and not finding God is wasting the divinely bestowed
power within you.
Use the key of reason. It is not found in stones and animals. God gave man
reason that he might find freedom from the delusion of mortality. If you let
your reason be trampled by ego and wrong habits, what then? If people bow
to your will, what then? Happiness still eludes you. That is why Jesus chose
God instead of Satan when the Devil tried to tempt him. Jesus realized that
although worldly power has many attractions, it does not last. He had found
something greater than all the riches of this universe. The things that most
men desire are perishable. But God will never leave Jesus. He is still
enjoying the omnipresent divine kingdom. So should each one of us choose
the life that leads to God.
You are punishing the soul by keeping it buried, slumbering in matter life
after life, frightened by nightmares of suffering and death. Realize that you
are the soul! Remember that the Feeling behind your feeling, the Will
behind your will, the Power behind your power, the Wisdom behind your
wisdom is the Infinite Lord. Unite the heart’s feeling and the mind’s reason
in a perfect balance. In the castle of calmness, again and again cast off
identification with earthly titles, and plunge into deep meditation to realize
your divine kingship.
Look within yourself. Remember, the Infinite is everywhere. Diving deep
into superconsciousness, 8 you can speed your mind through eternity; by the
power of mind you can go farther than the farthest star. The searchlight of
mind is fully equipped to throw its superconscious rays into the innermost
heart of Truth. Use it to do so.
Remember, it is you who must travel to the kingdom of heaven; it will not
come to you by special delivery. Each man has to hie his own way alone.
From this day make a resolution in your heart to seek God. When many
devotees follow the path to Him, there will arise a “United States of the
World,” 9 with God and His love as man’s Director and Guide.
I want to give you more than the temporary inspiration of words alone; I
want to shoot star-shells of wisdom straight into your spiritual darkness,
that by their bursting light you may see for yourself the truth of what I have
said.
The Two Paths: Activity and Meditation
To summarize, there are basically two approaches to God-realization: the
outer way and the inner, or transcendental way. The outer way is by right
activity, loving and serving mankind with the consciousness centered in
God; the transcendental way is by deep esoteric meditation. By the
transcendental way you realize all the things you are not, and discover That
which you are: “I am not the breath; I am not the body, neither bones nor
flesh. I am not the mind or feeling. I am That which is behind the breath,
body, mind, and feeling.” When you go beyond the consciousness of this
world, knowing that you are not the body or the mind, and yet aware as
never before that you exist—that divine consciousness is what you are. You
are That in which is rooted everything in the universe.
Why not inquire behind the darkness when you close your eyes? That is the
place to explore. “And the light shineth in the darkness; and the darkness
comprehended it not.” 10 Vast lights and cosmic forces are moving there.
Skyfuls of Eternal Bliss Will Be Opened
Samadhi 11 is a joyous experience, a splendid light in which you behold the
countless worlds floating in a vast bed of joy and bliss. Banish the spiritual
ignorance that makes you think this mortal life is real. Have these beautiful
experiences for yourself in eternal samadhi, in God. Auroras of light,
skyfuls of eternal bliss will be opened to you.
All great teachers declare that within this body is the immortal soul, a spark
of That which sustains all. He who knows his soul knows this truth: “I am
beyond everything finite; I now see that the Spirit, alone in space with Its
ever new joy, has expressed Itself as the vast body of nature. I am the stars,
I am the waves, I am the Life of all; I am the laughter within all hearts, I am
the smile on the faces of flowers and in each soul. I am the Wisdom and
Power that sustain all creation.”
Realize that! My words may remain vibrating within you; but if you sleep
on in delusion, you will not know it. If you awaken, you will be conscious
that the truth I have spoken is ever throbbing within your soul. Meditate.
Learn this liberating lesson. Wait no more. I came here not to entertain you
with worldly festivities 12 but to arouse your sleeping memory of
immortality. You do not realize the pain that comes to those who remain in
delusion. I suffer for you, and will do everything to help you realize that
illumination is within.
Free yourself forever!
Footnotes
1. From the Sanskrit vid, “to know.” The Vedas comprise a voluminous
scripture of 100,000 couplets. The origin of the Vedas is lost in
antiquity. They were passed down orally for millenniums. According
to tradition, the illumined sage Vyasa, who lived at the time of
Bhagavan Krishna (see Bhagavan Krishna in glossary), was the
compiler and arranger of the Vedas in their present form: Rig Veda,
Sama Veda, Yajur Veda, and Atharva Veda.
2. Literally “seers.” The rishis were the inspired personages to whom the
Vedas were revealed in an indeterminable antiquity.
3. “They are true knowers...who understand the Day of Brahma, which
endures for a thousand cycles (yugas), and the Night of Brahma, which
also endures for a thousand cycles. At the dawn of Brahma’s Day all
creation, reborn, emerges from the state of non-manifestation; at the
dusk of Brahma’s Night all creation sinks into the sleep of non-
manifestation” (Bhagavad Gita VIII:17–18).
4. “…for, behold, the kingdom of God is within you” (Luke 17:21).
5. Meditation is that special form of concentration in which the attention
has been liberated, by scientific yoga techniques, from the restlessness
of the body-conscious state and is focused unfalteringly on God.
Meditation is the concentrated flow of one’s attention and
consciousness toward communion and oneness with God.
6. “Let man uplift the self (ego) by the self; let the self not be self-
degraded. For him whose self (ego) has been conquered by the Self
(soul), the Self is the friend of the self; but verily, the Self behaves
inimically, as an enemy, toward the self that is not subdued”
(Bhagavad Gita VI:5–6).
7. Cosmic illusion; “the measurer.” Maya is the magical power in
creation by which limitations and divisions are apparently present in
the Immeasurable and Inseparable. In God’s plan and play (lila), the
sole function of this delusive power is to cast a veil of ignorance over
man to divert his awareness from Spirit to matter, from Reality to
unreality.
8. Soul consciousness, which is intuitive and all-knowing. The
superconscious mind is thus the omniscient power of the soul. (See
also Spiritual Eye in glossary.)
9. As the individual states of America maintain independence and yet are
united in common ideals and goals, so if God’s kingdom is to come on
earth, the various countries of the world must similarly unite in a bond
of harmonious cooperation and brotherhood.
10. John 1:5.
11. Spiritual ecstasy; state of God-union experienced as the ultimate goal
of meditation.
12. As a part of his effort to foster a broader understanding between the
cultures of East and West, Paramahansa Yogananda occasionally
arranged social gatherings at the Self-Realization Fellowship
International Headquarters. He refers here to a “Hindu-American
Banquet” that was to follow this talk.