WE observe, then, that the steps of this ladder of love by which the soul
mounts, one by one, to God, are ten. The first step of love causes the soul to
languish, and this to its advantage. The Bride is speaking from this step of
love when she says: ‘I adjure you, daughters of Jerusalem, that, if ye find
my Beloved, ye tell Him that I am sick with love.’ [232] This sickness,
however, is not unto death, but for the glory of God, for in this sickness the
soul swoons as to sin and as to all things that are not God, for the sake of
God Himself, even as David testifies, saying: ‘My soul hath swooned away’
[233] —that is, with respect to all things, for Thy salvation. For just as a
sick man first of all loses his appetite and taste for all food, and his colour
changes, so likewise in this degree of love the soul loses its taste and desire
for all things and changes its colour and the other accidentals of its past life,
like one in love. The soul falls not into this sickness if excess of heat be not
communicated to it from above, even as is expressed in that verse of David
which says: Pluviam voluntariam segregabis, Deus, haereditati tuae, et
infirmata est, [234] etc. This sickness and swooning to all things, which is
the beginning and the first step on the road to God, we clearly described
above, when we were speaking of the annihilation wherein the soul finds
itself when it begins to climb [235] this ladder of contemplative purgation,
when it can find no pleasure, support, consolation or abiding-place in
anything soever. Wherefore from this step it begins at once to climb to the
second.
2. The second step causes the soul to seek God without ceasing. Wherefore,
when the Bride says that she sought Him by night upon her bed (when she
had swooned away according to the first step of love) and found Him not,
she said: ‘I will arise and will seek Him Whom my soul loveth.’ [236] This,
as we say, the soul does without ceasing as David counsels it, saying: ’seek
ye ever the face of God, and seek ye Him in all things, tarrying not until ye
find Him;’ [237] like the Bride, who, having enquired for Him of the
watchmen, passed on at once and left them. Mary Magdalene did not even
notice the angels at the sepulchre. [238] On this step the soul now walks so
anxiously that it seeks the Beloved in all things. In whatsoever it thinks, it
thinks at once of the Beloved. Of whatsoever it speaks, in whatsoever
matters present themselves, it is speaking and communing at once with the
Beloved. When it eats, when it sleeps, when it watches, when it does aught
soever, all its care is about the Beloved, as is said above with respect to the